A Love Supreme
Posted by Andrea Griggs on June 9th, 2010 in Blog | 6 Comments
I missed the small signs that everyone else in my family saw ten years ago. Now, however, I wonder if I was in denial or if I was just left out of the “knowing”. At 80 years old, my grandmother’s progression of Alzheimer’s is certainly taking its toll. Her life has been completely changed. She has transformed from a vibrant, active, fun-loving adult into an unsure adult who is unaware of how to handle the many complexities of life.
As the first grandchild, it has been extremely difficult for me to relinquish all of the plans my grandmother and I made. It’s hard to let go of the long conversations on the phone where we would talk and laugh about the “good ole days” of when I was a child. Sometimes after spending time with her, I weep uncontrollably because I know that she will never be the same. Some days when I visit, she knows who I am, and other times, she thinks I am someone else or she just doesn’t know me at all.
Although my grandmother is not deceased, I can’t express to you how much I miss her and wish she would come back. Selfishly, I just want her to come back so all of our lives can go back to the way they were before. Now, more than ever, it is time for me and my family to step up to the plate and return to my grandmother all the love she ever gave to us. Unfortunately, we all worry about being fully-equipped to handle the circumstances of the days ahead.
I love “Big Mama”. She wasn’t a big woman, but she loved in a big way. I love her for all the fun times, the family dinners, and for doing all she could to show us the importance of the family unit. I love her most for her unconditional love. It is very similar to the love we receive from God; A LOVE SUPREME.
Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. (1 Cor. 13: 4-8; NKJV)
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Andrea is the Host of Females With A Mission Radio (FWM) on Blog Talk Radio. She is passionate about empowering women to fulfill their true mission by God. Visit Females with a Mission and remember to "chase after your dreams with all you've got!"
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Andrea, the poignancy of the situation jumps off the page - I was very close to my grandmother also and although she never suffered from Alzheimer’s and I cannot relate to that type of anguish, I miss her wisdom, grace, and unconditional love. My prayers are with you.
Susan,
Thank you for your kind words and your prayers. My family and I certainly could use them. Be well and be blessed sis!
I can so relate to this post. My Big Mama had Alzheimer’s too and it’s nothing like having lost someone before they’re actually gone.
Andrea, thank you for sharing the love you have for your grandmother. My mother is 89 and recently diagnosed with Alzheimer’s. She, too, is slipping away. As the disease changes her I do know that at least one thing will remain constant - her love for us and our love for her. Blessings to you and your family.
Wanda & Cynthia
Thank you so much for your thoughts and comments. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
FYI,
New developments in Alzheimer’s research were shared on Good Morning America today (8/10/10). Make sure you find out more.
Be blessed!