Called To Something Bigger

Posted by Victoria Bierman Jenkins on April 28th, 2010 in Faith | 9 Comments

“For a brief moment I abandoned you, but with great compassion I will gather you. In overflowing wrath for a moment I hid my face from you, but with everlasting live I will have compassion on you, says the Lord, your Redeemer” (Isaiah 54:7-8, NRSV).

Those words changed my life.

My entire world had come to a screeching halt. My marriage and my most intimate friendships as well as my sense of self-worth, lie shattered in more pieces than I care to admit. Beautifully enough, it was that brokenness coupled with my anger that brought me to the feet of Jesus.

So, there I was with my Bible in my lap for the first time in years. I cried out, “Where were you, God?!” To my surprise, He spoke to me in the last way I had expected - through His Word. From there God picked up the wreckage of my life and made it His.

I desired to learn what the Lord wanted from me, but my laziness and my three kids kept me equipped with every excuse in the book to never open The Book. Having a passion for writing and a love for blogging, writing devotionals seemed like the perfect way to keep me accountable to staying in His Word. Often times we’ll excuse our way out of commitment to ourselves, but letting someone else down isn’t as easy on our conscience.

I continue to share what I’m learning through writing devotionals, but God isn’t done growing this ministry just yet!

Having lost my closest friends to my husband’s sexual addiction, I struggled to form new connections. Each new friendship fizzled out and I began to fall into a self-loathing lifestyle that consisted of pajamas, soap operas, reclusion, and the occasional crying jag. After the last lingering remnant of friendship finally went caput, God dropped inspiration on me like nothing I’ve known.

The call was clear, but my ever-human mind kept me wondering if the idea to write for Him truly came from God, or merely from my own desires. I enlisted the prayer of a sister in Christ and soon God began to drop Living Bread crumbs all over my life. As I followed the trail, His voice became clearer.

God has taught me many things over these few years, and brought me through more than I ever thought I could endure. The greatest gift has been learning firsthand that our Sovereign Lord is our Faithful Father and Closest Confidant. When we follow where He leads, He will lead us Home.

Are you being called to something bigger than yourself? Well, God is bigger, my sister! We, as daughters of the King, must stand firm in our God-given destinies no matter how overwhelming they may seem. Every time I feel too small for the role God has called me to play, I cling to the God-breathed Words that Mordecai spoke to Esther, “Who knows? Perhaps you have come to royal dignity for just such a time as this” (Esther 4:14).